You have dots of Light within you that are growing in awareness. These dots are the heart of wisdom in you and their mission is to grow, to expand into the most generous, ebullient, masterful Light, until it can no longer be contained within you and spills out over your boundaries to create more of its beauty all around you.
It cannot be contained, this Light. It is the Light of Consciousness, the Light of Creation, and yes, the Light of the Sun.
All of you are included in this … there is no one who is higher or lower, less or more in this … because if you are in that thinking strand, you are in the darkness …. only Light is available to share, your darkness is your own.
And we’d like to emphasize the idea of “drilling through” again. Do you see how the thoughts will often take you to a place that is filled with angst, drama, and story? This is your old food supply. It’s like a cave where you sneak down to get your junk food when no one else is looking. We’d like to remind you that the only one looking is the only one who was ever looking … and that one, of course, is you. You cannot hide anymore from yourself.
So, we would ask you to enter this slippery, slimy, hidden place within you on purpose and just experience it. Feel what power it has … does it still have power over you? How much? How little? How does it feel in that space? That is your own Self-Doubt you are experiencing. That is how it feels when you are in it. That space you are playing in, is the space of your Not Remembering Who You Are. It’s the place you fell asleep in, and that you are waking up from.
It is not to be judged in any way. It is only to be felt. From this feeling of it, you are gaining awareness about it. Do you feel how ordinary and normal it feels to attack yourself or be in self doubt? Even how ordinary it feels to defend against it, to resist it, or not be it? All of these reactions are emotions that are generating the Old Food that you used to love. The “bad chocolate.”
Don’t you enjoy eating the good stuff a little bit more these days?
So today, make a practice of sitting in awareness when the thoughts that feel like attacks, doubts, not enough’s, lack of belief in yourself, in who you really are, come up. Just be in them, without judgment. And when you are there … see if you are able to use the power of the Light to drill through that space of Doubt, that Old Food, and come to the Plain of Perception. To the field of energy that is the experience of being in Creation. We will meet you there.
Addendum to Lesson 5: So we wanted to speak a little more about this “slippery, slimy” place because many of you are here a lot of the time. It is a place where you have questioned the past. It is the place you slide past when you use your breath to go deep and even deeper within yourself.
When you do that, this Light creates a space; it is like small dots of iridescent/fragrant/unbelievable color within a space we call the Soul. Once these small dots connect with the Light again – and it does this through many means, one of them being through the connection with another Human who is bearing this Light, (you “bear it” by bearing witness to it, by seeing it, breathing it, Being it) – then this Light begins to claim its awareness again. It is a living breathing organism, and it begins to flow as Life from within the Human who is connecting with it.
This connection is usually done with words, and it can also be done through energy alone. This Light has a wisdom and knowledge that goes beyond all human knowledge, beyond all Words. When the dots within a Human recognize the Light, all they want to do is to grow bigger … grow bigger until they consume all the darkness in that Human. The Sun is the instrument of this Light.
Are you beginning to see how small this piece of personal importance is to who you really are? Do you see how this is the part that is still holding onto what you believed was your life … the shreds of darkness that still remain inside of your Human? This is the slippery, slimy place we were talking about. It is the Human experiencing itself, outside of the Light. So choose again. You can always choose again.